Mother to a CHILD

by : thinking cristina

I am beginning to feel my "baby's bump". Actually I am into my 10th week of pregnancy. I wanted to write something for my little resident and so here it goes :

Baby Chikiting,

My whole world stopped upon learning that I am having you. There are no words that can best sum up the happiness and joy that surrounded every inch and every part of my heart since the day I knew that I have you. There are certain promises I want you to know that I will keep no matter what. I have them listed here so that in time, I can be reminded of those promises.

1. Mom promise not to scream when I'll give birth to you, i know it will be so hard, but MOm will try.
2. I promise not to have your butt covered with the irritating diapers everyday except when we go out for walks and shopping.
3. If you turned out to be a boy, I promise I wont never ever paint your nails pink nor dressed you like Britney Spears and if you are a girl, I will never ever cut you hair like those of the boy's.
   
4. I promise I will breastfeed you, if mommy's inverted nipples stick out months from now, but, it they don't I promise you will be feed more than you needed and wanted.
   
5. I will try to control and not to be bothered by your cries, and you can cry nonstop without mommy covering her ears, promise.
6. I promise to feed you only with natural and healthy foods, no junkies allowed, I dont intend to feed you with cerelac and gerber, okay, I might feed you with gerber but not with Cerelac.
7. You will have your pictures taken on a daily basis, until Daddy's Hard Disk (1 tetra) and (500 mb) are filled with nothing but your pictures, until you are old enough to delete them all.
   
8. We will celebrate your bday monthly. It might not be all the time " bongga" but, there will be spagetti, ice cream and gifts for you.
   
9. If you are a boy, you will be circumcised at the age of 10, not 10 weeks old. I dont want you to feel pain when you're not mature enough to know the meaning of it. If you are a girl, I promise not to put highlights on your hair - not until you turned 12 though. If you are a boy, we will get you enrolled in Basketball training camp every summer, and if you are a girl, it is definite that you will join a theater workshop, dress making class or acting worshop, whatever suits you.
10. At the age of 15, when you admit that you are finally seeing someone, Mom promise not to throw a fit, nor pull your hair nor cast cold glances on you. Above all, Mom promise not to tell your Dad about it. Deal!
11. After you finish your highschool, I promise not to choose the course you will take in college. You are free to decide whatever you wanted. Of course, baby, Mom wants you to be a scientist, or even a pathologist or meteriologist, but, baby, I will tell you straightforward right now, it will break mommy's heart if you will not pursue what you want in order to please us. Go with what you want, but, think about being a scientist, please?
    
12. And on your wedding day,Mommy won't cry that much.. (the only promise I am not sure I am capable of doing, but, still I will try). I won't faint.
13. I promise I will not name your children after my own liking. (but, if you want, I have a long list of names waiting for you to check each one out).
14. I promise not to yell and spank you.
15. I promise to be a great mother,to you and to your siblings as well.
    

I wanted to become a mother since I was eight. There's something in me that tells me I can be a great mom. I will soon cut the money I spend on my wardrobe. (be careful with the word : will) I am trying to stuffed my mouth with amplaya despite its bitterness. I tried hard not to lavish myself with Doritos and Piattos. I forget how pepsi and coke tastes like.

As a mother-to-be there are a lot of things we ought to sacrifice for our future child. Never had I been so happy such as this. It is entirely different when you have a pair of tiny feet kicking inside your tummy, you see the world and its perfection. Never did I appreciate the smell of rain, the luscious greenies and the tall blazing sun, not until now am having a baby. I see the world blemish-free. I want nothing but the best for my baby, and so I promise my best to shield her / him from pain as long as I am breathing.

I love you chikiting..